How i honestly feel.

By some i feel used, threatened, and abused. I am tired of it. Manna needs to get off her high horse and stop being a bitch to everybody about everything. She isn't perfect. MY heart is telling me i need to tell tyla how i feel and get around ALL THIS I heart you bull shit. My head is saying don't never or at least not yet. I am scared shitless of the final outcome, I always am. They say the only thing we have to fear is fear itself. Well I don't know how i feel about that. It is behind me the whole telling her i have those kind of feelings, but I am chicken shit to tell her that i love her. I want so see her b4 she goes, but this weekend is the only weekend left i have with my mom b4 she goes. she is going to go see chandler saturday he is her nest friend, but where do i come into this category? Somebody freaking help me. I am totaly depressed on this matter. Her parents say that she can't come bc she already promised chandler. Oh well I will just have to see what i have to do. Crap i suck. Someone help me. I am scared that somehow i am going to screw up the marching band show, and everyone will hate me. I am scared of what people are going to say when they see my hair when i go to school. I am not doing what i am doing to it until after band camp. Ha ha ha help
Truly yours,
Sir Patrick Ryan Eason