How i honestly feel.

By some i feel used, threatened, and abused. I am tired of it. Manna needs to get off her high horse and stop being a bitch to everybody about everything. She isn't perfect. MY heart is telling me i need to tell tyla how i feel and get around ALL THIS I heart you bull shit. My head is saying don't never or at least not yet. I am scared shitless of the final outcome, I always am. They say the only thing we have to fear is fear itself. Well I don't know how i feel about that. It is behind me the whole telling her i have those kind of feelings, but I am chicken shit to tell her that i love her. I want so see her b4 she goes, but this weekend is the only weekend left i have with my mom b4 she goes. she is going to go see chandler saturday he is her nest friend, but where do i come into this category? Somebody freaking help me. I am totaly depressed on this matter. Her parents say that she can't come bc she already promised chandler. Oh well I will just have to see what i have to do. Crap i suck. Someone help me. I am scared that somehow i am going to screw up the marching band show, and everyone will hate me. I am scared of what people are going to say when they see my hair when i go to school. I am not doing what i am doing to it until after band camp. Ha ha ha help
Truly yours,
Sir Patrick Ryan Eason

a forced dealing

Hello. miss me much? I have been in a hotel. what is the purpose of a hotel? Its main purpose is to put yo into such small quarters with your family that you are forced to deal with them. Well i hate my family. my brother stinks. I don't think that he has showered since we have been here. He is rather disgusting. My mother can't control her attitude or moods for that matter. I do however hate my step father, i love my mother, but this guy has to go. he does alot for us, but he treats us like shit when he talks to us He is demeaning, a bully, and an overall egotistical jerk. okay.
Truly yours,
Sir Patrick Ryan Eason

Levi Johnston: Palin resigned to cash in on fame

ANCHORAGE, Alaska – A spokeswoman for Gov. Sarah Palin is scoffing at comments by Bristol Palin's former fiance, who says he thinks Palin resigned to cash in on her fame.
"It is interesting to learn Levi is working on a piece of fiction while honing his acting skills," Palin family spokeswoman Meghan Stapleton said in an e-mail to The Associated Press.
Levi Johnston, 19, whose wedding to Bristol Palin was called off earlier this year, said Thursday he lived with the Palin family from early December to the second week in January. He claimed he heard the governor several times say how nice it would be to take advantage of the lucrative deals that were being offered, including a reality show and a book.
"She had talked about how nice it would be to take some of this money people had been offering us and you know just run with it, say 'forget everything else,'" he said.
He said he thinks book deals were really what appealed to Palin.
"I think the big deal was the book. That was millions of dollars," said Johnston, who has had a strained relationship with the family but now says things have improved.
Compensation details of Palin's book projects haven't been disclosed. The former GOP vice presidential candidate has said she is facing more than $500,000 in legal fees.
Johnston made his comments at a news conference Thursday at the office of his attorney, Rex Butler.
Johnston came forward, Butler said, because Alaskans want to know why Palin has decided to resign, effective the end of the month.
Johnston is pursuing his own book deal and movie deal while working as a carpenter.
Asked if he would vote for her if she ran for president, Johnston said: "I think she's a great lady, but after seeing what she did now, you know, leaving Alaska, I would have to say, 'no.' Obviously she's stressed out as governor. I mean moving up to the vice president or president is huge. I just don't think anymore that she's cut out for the job."

So this guy got his engagement broke off, and then he goes around insulting people? GOd this guy needs to crawl in a fucking whole. Sarah Palin will make a great president, so this democratic asshole needs to shut the hell up.


Truly yours,
Sir Patrick Ryan Eason

WHy do I always get the shity end of the stick?

My phone got thrown into a pool with me by my fagget brother. I then got my old phone. The battery sucks, and the person who threw me into the pool got his old phone back with a newer battery which totaly pisses me off. Its not my fault tht i got thrown into a pool. The mother fucker who threw me in needs to replace my phone I don't care how much it fucking costs. he needs to get off the god damned nipple and replace my phone. The shit head. Why do i have to constantly stay in a tangle of emotions? Is it my fault that i am a mistake, and should have never been born in the first place? IF you have an answer to why my life is shitty please feel free to answer. on the bright side TYLA will be coming back b4 christmas.
Truly yours,
Sir Patrick Ryan Eason

bye bye nerves

My stepdad is an asshole. he has been and always will be. He has got to have everything his way or the highway well, pardon the french but fuck him. no one is perfect and he needs to grow a set and deal with it. I hate it most when he compares me to other people. I am me. there is rom for impovement but not the way he wants me to improve. I don't care what he thinks i am not gonna be when i grow up. he is a pain in the ass. Will he just go the fuck away?
Truly yours,
Sir Patrick Ryan Eason

After falling from the face of the planet i am back

I started out just going to summer camp, so let me tell you about that first. It was exciting. I made lots of new friends, and played this really wierd strategy game with a deck of cards. i got certified for life gaurd, I also learned to sail and canoe. i had a blast, and this time no sunburn. So when i got back i went to a pool party for my little cousin megan. Well I had my cell, and my camera in my pocket, and this would explain exactly why i haven't texted, well i got thrown into the pool with all tht stuff in my pocket, it sucks. Sunday my grandmother came down and i went to her house for a week, nothing much to talk about just farm work, and not being able to talk to tyla. anyways I went to dads friday. I met his new gf she is pretty cool. She is a kick ass cook and taught me a few tricks. So my cooking variety has increased dramaticaly. Anyways. I also went fishing. I watched her fall into the river trying to come out of it. It was funny. i am home now so call the house or instant message me.
Truly yours,
Sir Patrick Ryan Eason